I think I made 15 or over 15 cuts today. I was bored and alone . Also , I was looking for a way to let some of the sorrow out , but it didn’t help. The only thing I was asking myself was “Will someone ever see what am I doing to myself and just at least give me a sholder to cry on. I haven’t cried in such a long time. Will anyone cry for me if I don’t scream for help the next time I try to kill myself ? ” I can’t be this alone anymore.
I think it’s the @ if I’m not mistaking
do you know how difficult it is to feel secure in your looks and personality and overall self when absolutely no one has ever shown any interest in you whatsoever like yeah you shouldn’t base all of your self-confidence on other people but still there’s like always that irritating little voice inside of you that tells you that you’ve never been worth a second glance or getting to know for anyone and you can try to ignore it all you want but it’s still there